Anxiety.

Have you ever had to deal with full blown anxiety? It is a tough road to travel, I'll say!

I have dealt with anxiety since I was a little kid, but after having my babies, it progressively has grown worse. Everytime I got into the car, I obsessively worried about getting into an accident, and the kids dying. Emerson drives all day for his job, and I found myself calling him all the time to make sure he was okay. I would wake up in the middle of the night and worry that someone would break into my house, my kids would suffocate, or other such things. I realize that most mums worry, but my worrying was getting out of control, and it was exhausting. I decided I needed to get some help.

Em took me to the doctor last week, and I got 2 prescriptions to help me. One is short term, and one is long term. The short term one makes me sleepy, so I take it right before bed. I have already noticed a difference! Emerson can play b-ball at the church without me freaking out! Yahoo! Hopefully it gets better, and then I will learn how to control my thoughts so I won't need to be on meds for a long time.

Now happy thoughts! Elijah can now say "fish" which comes out as psshhhh, and "woo hoo". He says "ba becka" for rebecca, emmy, baby, "go go go" and score". He is learning so much so quickly. He is in the 95th percentile for weight! Big boy!

Lily is growing so quickly as well! She is all smiles these days, and a happy little girl. She's a sweetheart, and I just can't get enough of her.

Emerson and I thought we were DONE having kids, but I am having some major baby fever! I don't know where it came from, but it's there, and I find myself constantly wanting a baby! I must be insane! We will wait a year or 2, and see how we feel then. If we are done, then Em will get the big V, if not, we will have another one. We do make cute kids, if I do say so myself!